Somewhere between the procrastination And the incessant forwards And the calls home complaining about roommates & boyfriends... Somewhere between the phone calls to old friends And the "I miss you's" And the "I love you's" And the "I can't wait to see you again's"... And somewhere between all of the changing & growing... And somewhere between the classes And the skipping classes And the studying for tests And the pretending to study for tests And the downright not studying for tests... I forgot. I forgot what it was like to be in high school. I forgot what it meant to cry. I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy And that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart. I forgot that you can't just forget the past. I forgot that you can't control falling in love And that you can't make yourself fall in love. I learned that I can love. I learned that good food doesn't really seem great until you can't have it anymore And I learned that even I would grow to love soup, and macaroni & cheese. I noticed that I get along better with my mother now than I ever did before and that wasn't because she changed, but because I changed. I learned that going to college means making choices And that making choices can get you into trouble. I learned that it's okay to mess up And it's okay to ask for help And it's okay to feel like crap. I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have. I learned that the greatest thing about college isn't the parties Or the drinking Or the guys... It's the chances. Taking the chances And then making the most of them. I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about. I learned that once you get to college, Things don't automatically get better... It's what you make of them. I learned that letters from friends are the most important thing And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better. But, basically, I just learne...
